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Why Malaysia is still a third world country… July 25, 2009

Posted by Jannah in Malaysia, Opinion, Politics, Public.
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Having had numerous conversations with a lot of people from various backgrounds with different opinions, I have come to a conclusion. Malaysia is still a third world country because we lack the ability to think.  No, not the ability, the desire to think.

So on that note, let me share with you what I think..

First, lets look at the TV series that we have here in Malaysia, and try and compare them with the ones that we are used to watching in the US . Grey’s Anatomy for example, even though none of us can deny that this series is more entertainment rather than intellect (as compared to a discovery channel documentary), has a decent amount of valid information in it. You can tell that a considerable amount of effort was put into researching the medical conditions, the backgroud of their education, what their work encompasses and how REAL examinations are being done. The actors made sure that they took some time observeing and shadowing real surgeons so that they can play the part convincingly.That is why their acting do not seem fake. They actually do what scientists do if you think about it. They observe, formulate their own understanding about what is going on and reproduce their thoughts into their acting. It is not attributed to talent alone nor is it just merely “pretending to be in someone else’s shoes”.What about the ones that we have here then? I do not deny that there are very few good movies out there, but thats it, they are very few.  Hence why we have a lot of ridicilous and unintelligent shows out there. I am sure you wouldn’t have any difficulty thinking of one.  What about series like CSI, Bones? I am certain that none of our series can even come close to the standard that these series have.

Now lets compare the education system that we have here in Malaysia with a country like Britain say. Here we are taught to just accept what ever that is being said or taught to us by a body of authority. No objections. In order to excel in our exams, all we need to do is read, memorize and do lots of  latihan. There is actually no room for understanding what we are learning, to actually fathom, digest what is being taught to us. We are not taught how to learn, we are taught what we need to know to pass the exams. There is a big difference there. Kids are not given the freedom to explore, to experiment, to be creative in their own right.

In order for us to become a negara maju, an inquisitive mind is essential. Only through that will we be able to nurture young minds into becoming scientists, good politicians who make good policies for the betterment of the country, good teachers who are creative in discovering ways to make their students interested in learning, parents who know that it is important to instill good thinking skills from young, university students who are engaged in whats going on in the country that one day they will inherit. Only then will we be more than just an ordinary citizen whose only priority in life is to get straight A’s, obtain a dgree, get a good job, make loads of money and live a comfortable life, but to hell with what ever else that is going on outside.

But hey, this is just what I think. You on the other hand, might think differently. If you do think that is..

Peace =)

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Connecting The Dots June 23, 2009

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“You can’t connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking back” – Steve Jobs CEO of Apple Computer

I have always thought that life is all about making choices and mistakes. Sometimes you make the right one,sometimes you don’t. More often than not, you lose more than you win. Thats the way life works.

But knowing whether the choice that you made was the right one or not can only be determined on hindsight. It’s so difficult to know whether you are about to make the best desicion of your life or make the worst mistake you could ever make. You will only be able to tell once you have made that decision and lived it through.

I have had my fair share of making difficult choices. At the crossroads, I kept trying to find the answers, the signals, any clue that could lead me to the right one. Of course, seeking guidance from God was one of them and to some extent God did show me signs, but none distinctive enough that I could say with the utmost conviction what my choice would be. But, as I always believe, have faith. Have faith in myself, in God and what He has predetermined for me and in the choices that I make. In the end I made a choice. A choice that was difficult to make and live with but nevertheless neccessary I think.

Even to this day I am stll not sure whether some of the decisions that I have made are right or wrong. All I can do is pray and hope and of course, try my very best to make sure that it is the right one.

At the end of the day, making choices and living with the consequences, good or bad, are what makes you who you are. Without making mistakes and bad choices in life, you won’t be able to learn from it and hopefully avoid it the next time. As the quote says, you won’t be able to connect the dots looking forward, you can only do it looking backwards. Hopefully thoough, the dots will connect somehow.

Small Talks June 21, 2009

Posted by Jannah in Family, Malaysia, Medicine, Opinion, Public.
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Salam.

I hate making small talks. I don’t really fancy events where you need to mingle around so that you’ll be able to establish networks and ‘make friends’. I don’t mind the occasional, meet someone new and get to know them, but when its at events that you know people are just there so that they can take advantage of you later on, I feel like running away.

I was at an event with my dad today for IJN. Not to say its one of those things that I mentioned earlier, but it was along those lines. Mak saya takde, pergi kerja kat Kuantan, so I had to fill in for her. It wasn’t too bad, I did meet a lot of interesting and famous people and I got to dress up 😀

I think I have always been one of those people who prefers to do the background job instead of the one who gets to go up and take the credit and the fame. I prefer being the one who does the dirty work and builds the foundation daripada pergi attend bende2 macam nih. No offence to them, but I do feel as if its all a bit fake sometimes. there a genuine people out there, but, c’mon, lets be realistic, you could probably count them with your hands.

Dulu, when I was a part of the MSSM commitee, there were a few events that we had to attend as certain VIPs would be there. It would  be good oppurtunity for us to make ourselves known so that nanti senang nak mintak sponsor untuk M night. Uggghh, I so did not like it. I felt as if I’m being rude or something. Bukan ape, macam nak amik kesempata jer rase. Good for those who are good and are able to do it, because I for one, was not comfortable with it. In the end, I ended up directing M night pun, bukan cari sponsor.

I guess, this is one of the main reasons why I want to be a doctor – you do a lot of hands on jobs, not mere administration and corporate stuff. I aspire to be like my mom one day. She has spent her whole career being a public servant. I admire that and I hope I can do the same thing one day 🙂

Happy Fathers Day!! June 18, 2009

Posted by Jannah in Family, Medicine, Public, random.
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Lol!  They spelled my dad’s name wrong.

Love you daddy~ Happy Fathers Day!

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Posted by malaysiantoday on 2009/6/18 13:26:10 (62 reads)

For Father’s Day this Sunday, we salute dads who have made such an impression on their children that they have decided to follow in his footsteps and pursue a career just like his.

While he didn’t bloat up like a melon carrying you for nine months, he was there to rush out when your mom had strange cravings. While he probably didn’t wash your scraped knees as you learnt how to manoeuvre a bike, he was the one who taught you how to ride in the first place. He may not have been the one who picked up your dirty laundry, but he was most likely the one who taught you how to smile like a million bucks and cajole Mommy to do it.
Fathers (who may, arguably, be some of the most under-appreciated people ever) may not do all the things Mothers do, but they sure are great for a wise word or two just when you need ‘em, or for teaching you the big and small things in life.
So, come this Father’s Day (that’s June 21, for the forgetful), let’s revisit some great dads –dads so great, kids wanna’ be just like them. Three father-child teams share their stories to pay tribute to their rock-steady Dads, who may not have had so much publicity as Moms (think Mother’s Day frenzies, and compare them to the relatively quieter Father’s Days celebrations) but are nonetheless, the foundation upon which their families rely.

Hussain Moiz, 25, had a very strange reason for wanting to pursue medicine. When he was only a wee lad of six, he grew fascinated by anatomy and medicine through Hari Raya Haji. “My interest was piqued when I saw the insides of the slaughtered cow –it got me thinking: if this is how a cow looks inside, what about the inside of my own body?”
That, and his dad, of course: Moiz Siraj, 58, who runs a clinic in Kota Tinggi, Johor Baru (his hometown) and has been a doctor in the general practise for 25 years.
Currently in his fifth year in Manipal Unversity in Melaka, Hussain says that he spent his whole life watching his father as a doctor and witnessing the satisfaction his father feels when he helps a patient. “The feeling is amazing –and I appreciate it more so now that I am a medical student. There is also that sense of respect that one gets as a doctor.”
“My father has always been open-minded, and he never forced me into anything. I admire his passion, his dedication and his ability to priorities and balance both work and family,” he shares. “If I were to use five words to describe him, it would be intelligent, open-minded, disciplined, dedicated and strict.”
Hussain, who plans on taking the path of being a surgeon (his interest in human anatomy plays a big part here), also says that his father’s joy in running the clinic, tending to patients and being a doctor has spurred him to pursue this field. “He has guided me in my education and my life from the get-go, and he has always encouraged my interests. He has such a broad understanding of what medicine is that he is always ready to help me when I need him.”
However, things were not always that peachy –when he was much younger, he and his dad had more than their fair share of disagreements. “But as I grow older, I have become more and more like him. People even say I am a carbon copy of him –in the way I talk, and the way we look. We’re both stubborn and action-orientated.”
“Still, things that I never used to understand in my younger days I understand now, and truth be told, I cannot thank him enough for all he has been through and done for me and my siblings,” he says. “Thanking is not enough –if I could be a father to my son like he has been to me, I would be grateful.”
Now that he and his siblings have left home to pursue their studies, his father looks forward to their visits home. “I can see the shine in his eyes when we come back,” he laughs. “He has truly been both a father and a friend to me.”
Another cool fact about his dad and him? They are both sports-nuts. In fact, his father once played rugby for Johor state in the seventies, and even until now, plays sports enthusiastically. “I try to get involved in the sports he has played.”
Hussain just wants to thank his dad with all his heart, and simply says: “Happy Fathers’ Day, Dad.”

Lavinia Lim, 25, an architect, has five words to describe her father, Adrian Lim, 54, who is also an architect. “He is a hardcore birdwatcher!” she jokes.
“But honestly that pretty much says who he is. Besides architecture, he absolutely loves nature, the outdoors and photography,” she says. “It’s his hobby. He will go great lengths to take a beautiful picture. He takes fantastic photographs that will have me staring in awe.”
Having always had an interest in the arts, Lavinia was initially uncertain about her path towards architecture. “I was not sure, because I love art in general. Honestly, architecture was the last thing on my mind,” she says. “Even despite my interest in building, culture and interiors, I grew up seeing my architect father getting moody and tired from his job.”
Hence, perhaps due to her tendency to be indecisive, her father voiced out his opinion about her education and career path.
“My father knows how indecisive I can be, but he never forced it upon me –he just voiced his thoughts and since I found it to be sound and interesting, I’ve pursued architecture ever since.” But as Lavinia grew older (and wiser) she began to realise that nothing comes easy.
“I admit, that along the way I have been on the verge of quitting due to stress, negative thoughts but like the trooper he always is, my father will always be there to give me encouragement and advice when I needed it,” she says, “even if he is thousands of miles away (she was overseas previously).”
Her father, she adds, never forced her into the studying of architecture, and left her to her own devices until such time she need his help. And, even as she experienced failure, he never admonished or scolded her. “He encouraged me never to give up and to always strive for my best,” she says.
When it came time to put her education to use, she admits that in the beginning, she was not keen on working for him. “Somehow, I had a feeling that a father and daughter team just cannot work together especially when we live under the same roof!”
Disputes, she says, will be brought on a personal level and worse yet –being around your own boss 24-hours? “Just awful,” she jokes. “But I have realised it is not as bad as I had thought, and that being an only child can bring out the overprotective worrywart in him.”
“He is so terribly worried about my safety that he is completely oblivious to how repetitive his warnings about the big, bad world really are!” she laughs. “But I understand this; he just really loves me and wants nothing more than for me to be safe.”
“My father has taught me about the importance of saving your hard earned money, about self worth, about character building and most of all, about safety,” she says. “Definitely about safety!” This father-daughter team is still working together in his architectural firm –it’s been around two years now that they have worked side-by-side.
When asked how she resembles her dad, Lavinia says that she resembles her father in very few ways. “Maybe our faces,” she says. “In fact, we are both very different people. He’s shorter, strict, louder and fights for what he believes in. I’m taller and ‘softer’, so to speak.”
Lavinia still plans on continuing to work with her father for hopefully years to come and has a special message for her ‘boss-dad’:
“Dear boss,” she says. “You can be a worry freak and nag me about safety all you like, but I will still love you, because I know you only have one child to pour all your love into. I’ll give you extra hugs soon (my boss loves hugs), and Happy Father’s Day!”

Nur Jannah Mohd Raziff, 22, is a medical student currently pursuing her studies in the University of Manchester in the United Kingdom, and she has followed in the footsteps of her father, Mohd Raziff Mohd Yunus, who is the CEO of the National Heart Institute. She has a brother who is also pursuing medicine, and a sister who has chosen the field of engineering instead.
“Ever since I was young I had always wanted to pursue medicine; partly due to my interest in science (especially the wonders of the human anatomy) and also because of all the exposure I had to the medical field through my parents,” she says. “I’ve always followed them to work, or hung around the hospitals after school. I think that was when I fell in love with medicine.”
Nur Jannah says that her decision to become a doctor was with the huge influence from her dad. “Since my father became involved in the healthcare profession, I’ve learned about what it entails and what it can offer,” she says. “Through my dad I’ve been exposed to the profession from inside and know what it’s really like, not just the glamour of being a doctor but also the down side of it.”
Nur Jannah credits her determination to be in this highly sought after and challenging field due to the support and encouragement from her father –in fact, from both her parents.
“My father has always supported me in all my decisions and helped me figure out what I wanted to become and work hard for it,” she says. “He and my mom taught us (she and her siblings) to develop our interests early on in our lives and that by working hard and smart we can achieve any ambitions we may have.”
Nur Jannah speaks glowingly about how her parents have been her support system all her life. “My father plays a very big role in my life – both my parents do,” she says. “Often, I seek my parents’ advice before making a decision or if I’m faced with a problem. They are the first people I will turn to in a crisis.”
She laughs as she says that she sometimes secretly thinks her father is a workaholic, but admires and looks up to the way he never lets work prevent him from spending time with his family.
“My father has been an excellent role model for me, by being a dedicated family man who never fails to spend time with his children no matter how busy he is, his hard work and for the passion he has for whatever he does.”
“Five words that will describe my father: loving, dependable, funny, wise and understanding,” she says. “My father is very loving and never fails to show it us, and I can always depend on him when I need help. He makes lame jokes sometimes, but he always likes to crack a joke. He is also always spot-on with his advice and he is also my lending ear –I can talk to him about anything: politics, sports and even about relationships.”
Growing up, Nur Jannah took a leaf out of her father’s books by working hard and never giving up. As the eldest child, she witnessed how he handled and faced tough times, and how he works ever harder each time. “He taught me to never compromise on my beliefs and to stick to what I think is right, regardless of the nay-sayers –but I have also learnt to respect others and to never take advantage of them.”
“It is because of my father that the responsibility of being a doctor and working hard for it is something I appreciate.”
Nur Jannah has a message she wants her dad to know: “Dear Ayah,” she says, “I love you very much and I am grateful that I have you as my father. You’re the best dad I could ever ask for. All of us are very proud of you and we hope we’ve become the people you’ve taught us to be.”


So this coming Sunday, wake up earlier than your dad (instead of your usual 10am lie-in) and make a cuppa’ of his favourite tea. Burn some toast for him (dads will most likely eat anything as long as it is cooked with love!) and just tell him how much you appreciate what he does for you. So even if you did not follow in his footsteps, at the very least, your love will follow his footsteps to work, perhaps putting a spring in them, arthritic knees and all.

CBN, The shining star of my life~ June 18, 2009

Posted by Jannah in CBN, English, Malaysia, Opinion, Public, Reflection.
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Salam. Hello folks, its been awhile huh? No inspiration I guess.. 🙂

Ah well, its rare that these days come by, so here I am, writing on…

The other day, Farhanah and I went by CBN to pick up Raudhah from school. Manje sungguh kanak-kanak ni, we used to take the LRT back under the hot scorching sun lagi! Anyway, Raudhah usually waits for us in the red hall, so we hung around there while waiting for school to end. As luck would have it, CBN 1 were practising for this action and sing competition they have the day after. Apparently, they’re at state level! So, me and farhanah sat there and watched as these kids performed their routine over and over again until Miss Low and Mrs. Phua were satisfied. Needless to say, Miss Low is still as garang as she was back when I was in school. Although the then often used ‘bangau’ word is no longer present, I can see that she still strike fears into these kids. Haha. Even I was scared! Nak beli makanan from the kantin and makan dalam red hall pun takut kene marah. Lol.

As I was sitting there, observing from a safe distance, the teachers drilling into these students that they have to be perfect and pronounce every single word properly (“open your mouths!!” / Miss Low: Its roooommm, not ruuummm; kids: “roooooooommm”), I can’t help but think no wonder we have quite a decent command of english. Not to blow on my own trumpet or angkat bakul sendiri, but I am proud that I can speak proper english (at least I think so!). Even the way these kids speak english is different than the average Malaysian. I think undoubtedly, CBN has a recomendable reputation for being a good english-speaking school.

I remember the days during english classes, we were made to read aloud and the teachers made sure that every enunciation was clear and loud. And my mom even made us do mouth exercises in the morning on the way to school. Memories of choral speaking competitions, drama competitions, public speaking and english days never fails to make my zygomaticus muscles to contract (that means smile, Apologies, I am a medical nerd). Even today, as I watch videos that my batch mates put up on their facebooks of our interclass drama competition back then makes me proud to be a CBNer 🙂

I think it is not the learning of the english that makes a difference, its the practice that you get from speaking over and over again. Listening to english songs and then trying to imitate the way they pronounce and speak does help. Who says listening to songs is a waste of time?! Maybe thats why our english sounds more American than it does British, we watch too many American shows.

Aah well..speaking and writing are two different things unfortunately for me. Too bad words don’t flow as well as it does for me when I write, hence the very limited entries. Its not that I don’t have ideas on what to write about ( I have loads, trust me), its just that every time that I am set to go clicking away, words just fail me. I guess I don’t express my thoughts as well as other people *sigh* Maybe I should talk more? Naahh, not me..

Ok, since I don;t have any ideas on what to say to close this entry, I shall just rant away..

Read the nwspaper today. I thought the government is on the right track to limit the numebr of SPM subjects to just 10 (although 12 would probably be more realistic). Its just unneccessary to take soo many subjects me thinks (kalau nak show off tuh lain lah cite). No disrespect to those who have (kudos to them for excelling), but I think taking too many subjects just increases the pressure on others (not to mention yourself!) to take up just as many. Plus, at the end of the day, how many subjects you take for SPM only takes you so far. Tak caye? Tanyelah mane-mane budak yang dah masuk university.

We focus too much on developing students who are excellent exam wise that we forget in order to survive the rat race that is this world, it takes more than a brilliant mind. I’ve seen loads of people who are not neccessarily the brightest students but have succeeded way further than the smart ones. You know what they had in common? They are all street smart, have good english and work their a** off. Of course, occasionally there are the ones who we like to call “pacat” but that’s a whole different story.

So, lessons for today, speak good english, be street smart and work hard! 😉

Right, till next time peeps, I need to get back to my puzzles and Kris Allen 😀

Clarity~ March 2, 2009

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Salam,

These past few days have been ones of clarity. For several reasons, I feel as if I’ve been losing myself, my footing these past few months. I used to blame the hormones, but I guess that hypothesis was proven wrong when it happened consistently and not periodically.

I guess, its all part and parcel of growing up. Difficult situations in your life forces you to grow up and mature, to take responsibility and own up to your mistakes. In times like these, I realize my potentials and the fact that I can in fact become a better person. Raise the roof and reach for the sky. Apologies for the cliche’ 😉

For some, their journey into adulthood my have started earlier. Now its my turn to bloom 🙂

The Ilan Pappe Talk February 20, 2009

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I just came back from a talk by Ilan Pappe, one of the world’s leading historian on the Palestine-Israel conflict, who by the way, happens to be Jewish. Generally, he touched on issues that us, Palestinians activists should be aware of in our struggle for justice. Basically, this was what he said (of which I can remember):

  • It is important for us to realize that this issue, in essence, is a very simple issue, that is made to believe (by the Isrealis) to be complicated. In reality, it is what it is; A group of people who share a common ideology, who believe that they have a ‘right’ to disregard other people’s right in order to get what they ‘deserve’.
  • In order to convince others, we must be aware of the struggle of the memories and policies of this cause – i.e. we must learn and know how to exploit the misconceptions and manipulations of history the Israelis have cast over the world.
  • Supporting this cause does not necessarily mean that we condone every single thing the victim does. Nevertheless, it should not ‘blur’ us away from the truth. It is what it is.
  • We should divorce Judaism from Zionism. Not all Jews are zionists, and not all Zionists are Jews.

There were loads more that were discussed, even the questions ( and at times, statements) made by the audience was very interesting. But these 3 points were the ones that stuck in my mind and I thought were most interesting.

One of the audience asked Ilan Pappe how he got to where he is today given that he was raised in Israel where he himself  admitted that the children were being taught to think that what Israel is doing is right. He answered by saying that he initially wanted to learn Arabic because he wanted to join the army Intelligence and help to decipher the enemy but ended up loving Arabic instead and started to learn about the true history of Palestine and Israel thus coming to the conclusion that he has now. Talk about Hidayah and Divine intervention! It is at times like these, when you hear stories like these, that you realize how powerful and wise God is. SubhanAllah.

When I think about the whole Palestine Issue, I can’t help but think, am I supporting this because I’m a Muslim? Or because it is just plain dead wrong? I sometimes wonder if we would still be convicted about this issue if say it was Uganda, instead of Palestine that is being victimised. My point is, probably we should take a moment and think about the reasons we are supporting Palestine. Because if we think that we would not support this cause as strongly as we do now, if it were Uganda, then I think we should call ourselves selfish and racsist before we call others that.

Politics. And all the shenanigans that comes with it. February 10, 2009

Posted by Jannah in Malaysia, Opinion, Politics, Public.
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I know its been a while (Ok, a long time) since my last entry, but in my defence, I have been swarmed with exams! (alasan untuk diri sendiri je sebenarnya nih =p)

Anyways, I’ve been trying to keep up to date with what’s going on back home. Although, I must say that reading all these news just makes me sad. Not to mention angry, dissapointed and all other negative connotations that you could possibly think of. Frankly speaking, I am just becoming more and more disgusted with Malaysian politics. Yes, I agree, politics are essential. Even Rasulullah (pbuh) was a political mastermind. However, one thing that I am able to deduce from all my observation of the happenings in Malaysian politics is that Politics brings out the worse in people.

I’m not just talking about politicians per se (although the statement is mostly attributed to them) but everyone in general. What else, if not politics, can provoke adults, intellectuals, professionals to beat each other up on the basis of ‘principles’? What else, if not politics, provides the medium for bribery and treachery to become oh-so-common? What else, if not politics, that can make a person throw all their ‘principles’ out the window? Surely this is not portraying good logical thinking, let alone the teachings of Islam.

Over the past week, I’ve seen countless videos, read numerous articles about protests (and not peaceful ones at that), fightings, bickerings. Over what?

I think, most times, people get into politics with the best of intentions which I’m sure most of us have. We want to change the world, make it a better place. Set right to the world. But sometimes I wonder if it is still possible to be involved in politics and come out of it saying, with confidence, that you did what you set out to do originally without sacrificing your principles (the good ones of course) even just a little bit. I am not sure that one can survive the political game anymore without being “coerced” into doing something that they swore they would not do before. Politics have just gotten so dirty lately that I’m not even sure its serving its purpose.

Honestly, I am not taking any sides because obviously both sides have their shortcomings. Nevertheless, it just bewilders me to think that  we specifically chose these people to protect our rights and be our voices, yet at the end of the day, all they seem to care about are their own interests.

P/s: I’ve added new pictures! Check them out on the Photo Gallery page 🙂

Just because I can’t think of anything at the moment. November 7, 2008

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What Nurjannah Means


You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you’re so lucky, you don’t really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You’re sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You’re always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can’t handle you. You’re very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you’re likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed… even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you… especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You’re a strong person.

What’s Your Name’s Hidden Meaning?
It’s ironic that all these personality stuff only mentions the “good” things, not the bad ones..the ones that I would like to know about myself.

It’s been a while… October 18, 2008

Posted by Jannah in Medicine, Opinion, random, Reflection, Religion.
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It’s been a while since I last updated this blog. Forgive me, but unfortunately quite a lot of different things have been happening that I had to deal with first. Alhamdulillah, everything’s finally settling down now and I can finally get back to my normal, uncrazy life 🙂

The last time I wrote an entry was when I was still enjoying my pleasant, peaceful summer. A time when I didn’t have to think about studies and my social responsibilities. Sadly, tha time has come and gone and I am now in my second year. My second year as a medical student and my second year in lovely Manchester. Alhamdulillah I’ve managed to get thus far. Syukur sangat-sangat.

However, it hasn’t been all sunshines and rainbows ever since I came back. As most of the people close to me would know, I had some problems the minute I landed in Manchester. Thank God I am blessed with family and friends that faithfully stood by me and supported me in more ways than one. i am forever grateful to all of you. I learned that in life, God throws you all kinds of challenges and problems. Challenges for you to take on and problems for you to learn how to solve. The way I see it, all these can only result in two things; you either become stronger and grow closer to Him and learn things about yourself and others that you would never have known in the first place OR you don’t. With every “bad” thing that God gives us, InsyaAllah there’s always something good awaiting at the end of it. I guess it’s really up to us how we take it, perceive it and deal with it. What doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger right?

Other than that, life has been pretty good. Eid was awesome, still is 😉 Kat Manchester nih tak habis-habis dengan raya. That’s what I love about it. It is after all my second home 🙂 Besides being busy with my studies (neuro is driving me crazy!) I’m also occupied with MSSM’s activities plus the occasional helping-with-other-projects here and there. I know my parents are worried that I’m getting myself busy with too many things, but I can’t stand not being busy. I need it to keep me occupied and distract me from other things in my life that I’m really not too keen thinking about right now. My life feels a lot more meaningful and worthwhile when I’m busy. Maybe this is the compensation that I get. Huhu. Anyways, mak & ayah, you know I love you but don;t worry. InsyaAllah nana tau where my limit is. Lagipun I’m stepping down in a few months time 😉

So, to anyone out there who’s having troubles of their own, take it from me, Hold on. Pray a lot. No one else can help you but Him. Always, always seek for His help. InsyaAllah sooner or later everything will fall into place 🙂 Have faith…

p/s: I’ve started my second year with a semester on neurology, basically THE MOST COMPLICATED thing you could ever learn. Nevertheless, studying medicine never fails to dazzle me on how majestic Allah’s creations are. Oleh itu, faham-fahamlah yer jika saya tidak selalu mengupdate ini blog. InsyaAllah I will try and squezze my thoughts here when I have the time 🙂 Thanks for reading folks..cheers~

p/ss: Adik-adik, I missss you allll~~~ Mak and ayah too…


note: I’ve uploaded  a slideshow of a collection of my raya pictures. Had to wait until all the open houses were over, that’s why it took so long! 😉